My Honest Prayer

Reading other people's honest words is very therapeutic for me. I have been praying all day long and basically the words have been the same. I thought I'd write them as they came. I hope and pray someone else is encouraged by the honesty and openness in this prayer. I hope that whoever is reading this knows that God is always there for us no matter how much we're struggling or how much pain we're in at the time. Just be honest with Him and ask for His help. Praising Him in the Storm is a lesson I've been trying to learn for years, but today I realized sometimes I need His help to even do that.

Suicide

My life has been affected by suicide. My loved ones have attempted, I lost my very dear cousin and friend two years ago, two high school friends this year, and at a younger age I had suicidal thoughts.

I have started reading a book and just wanted to share. As a person that has not attempted and hasn't thought of it in over a decade, I didn't think this would help ME, I was reading it for someone else. But in the first three chapters, I feel a life change happening. I will be buying more copies of this book and am willing to share it with anyone that wants to read it. I am understanding more of my cousin's decision, I am learning how better to talk to people about it and I am finally understanding my own thoughts from years ago. 

Our Deepest Fear

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

-Marianne Williamson