My Body

I have had some serious body image issues lately. I keep thinking, "I work out so hard. I eat so well (for the most part!) I have educated myself. I have gotten out of my comfort zone. But will I ever LOOK like it?"

What I Thought Was True, March 2008

In March of 2008, I suffered my first miscarriage. This is what I wrote about it. 5 1/2 years later, I have not edited or changed anything other than removing a poem a dear friend of mine wrote, because I'm not sure it's protected and I didn't want to be insensitive to her story. My emotions were raw when I wrote this and the writing isn't the best, but it's me. It's my form of healing. 

Stop Asking if I'm Pregnant

No, I'm not pregnant. I'm chunky.

No, I'm not pregnant. Sometimes, I get sick to my stomach. 

No, it's not "time" for a family addition. I don't know when it will be, but it's not up to me. 

7 Days

Monday, June 17, 2013: 

I took an at home pregnancy test. It was positive. After eight months of trying and three months of hormone treatments, I was PREGNANT! June 17th was an exciting day :) I made a few phone calls and told a few of my most favorite people. But I didn't tell my husband.